Then last night, I wanted to find out if she was home and if not where she was, but then I realized that it didn't matter. If she was out and I found her somewhere that I preferred she wasn't at or with people that I prefer she wasn't with, well, then what?
I'm quite sure I would get upset. I may have gotten into an argument with her, or confronted her, and how would that help me? It wouldn't, it would only hurt me and cause backsliding.
I can see how unattractive I became, I really wasn't any fun and that made OM so much more attractive than me, especially when you consider any petty arguments just pushed my W further away. If I had known then what I know now... But now that I do know, I can become more attractive.
I want to work on becoming more fun and funnier. Guess I'll see if there are any good books on that.
^^^That's all really great stuff, good job!! You wanted to snoop, but you checked yourself before you did, and you reflected on what YOU can do to become a better person. That's great DB'ing, and shows real growth on your part.
Originally Posted By: KindaHappy1
I don't know if I made the right move last night or not.
I think you did fine. DB'ing says not to accept EVERY offer, but accepting one now and then is OK.
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The weekend don't seem as fun as they used too...
Your sitch is still very young, just hang in there and keep up your GAL, you'll find the joy again
