Divorced-not done-But wondering ?

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JJ...ok finished the book. Well I have to say that the beginning of the realization of their emotions and what they were dealing with and the way things spun out of control was sooo on target. I mean I kept thinking I should send a copy of book to my X just so he could process it all and understand it.

I do not have young kids and we are not in each others lives. If he has those feelings of somethings not right I don't think he will ever reflect that it's our M. Like the woman in book he is in lala land with the throughs of a new relationship. Soulmates. I always tell him to find God again. It's a path he has to take to find us again.

I know he's mentioned to D how he goes to church when he can and is doing his own reflection, but like the book the OW calls and it's like a drug addiction and he runs away from what is hurting him the most.

I just wish I had kids to secretly plant ideas and thoughts of R into his mind. I mean I do have kids and I'm working on my GAL and 180s and all and those are the seeds...patience right?

I just feel he's missing out on so much with D and S in these young adult years and he manages to convince himself that he has as much contact as he needs to. There's nothing that could keep me away from them.

Just recently an incident came up with my sister contacting my X in regards to money situation and told X she didn't ask for the money hoping that he would see his D more since it's so hard because we live so far apart.

It ended up my D told her dad that it's ok you don't visit cause if she was in college and in a normal body person he wouldn't be visiiting as much anyway.

Argh!! I said but your not in that position!!! You still need your dad to be here for you. It's like she protects him or helps to justify it.

Anyway, I agree with what you wrote about the gaining trust and earning respect which may lead to other things. I think that is how I'm handling it. Just being all that God wants and asks us to be.

I've been reading alot on obidience to the Lord. and well this trial I'm going through says alot. These past 4 years since accident has brought me closer to God and like the book...he should have always been 1st.

How's your weekend going?