Guess I belong here now...

[sweetbabyred]

So I found out that the woman from FL and her two kids plan to visit xh next month and go to the state fair. That was tough to hear, but I was ok.

Then I found out that she's already been here to visit him once and looked at apts in his complex. I didn't take that too well.

I know that we're d and it shouldn't matter to me, but I do still love him. He keeps saying that they're not official and he's not ready for a relationship, but she's very eager.

And I know that I need to keep working on me. I need to be the best me I can be, regardless of what happens or doesn't between us.

Being jealous or sad won't get me closer to getting the family that I'm looking for.

I'm just not sure what he thinks a marriage or relationship is about. He says he likes spending time with me, wants to be friends, and is sexually attracted to me. For the most part, we agree on the big issues, so why does he not think we can be together?

And yes, I know I'm wasting my time thinking about all of this. I have a mud run tomorrow and am working two events, so I'll keep myself busy.