Welcome back BC39! I had hoped that coming back after your break from the boards you would have made a little headway. The limbo period is the toughest, by far. It's hard to go through each day trying to act as if you are ok while the world goes on around you.
I used to pray that my wife would receive a "moment of clarity" and suddenly realize what she was doing and come out of her fog. That moment finally came, but it took much longer than I ever thought it would.
It sounds like you are actually coping very well. EA fantasy relationships are so hard for the WAS to extract themselves from. I think part of them knows it's not real, but another part of them doesn't want to believe that- and clings to it for all it's worth. Eventually it will crash.
I think your wife will eventually come to her senses and return to you. I hope you can hang in there so that when she does, your heart is still in it.
