Just remembered that it's been 7 months since end of PA, 6 since end of last significant EA (both as far as I know from her words), so maybe the OP drug withdrawal is beginning to fade? And maybe she is still seeing if these changes of mine are permanent (jeez, I am a horrible actor, much less sustain a "character" for 18 months 24x7, honey...I think they are permanent, lol).
In the depths of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer. - Albert Camus
Uncertainty is the very condition which impels people to unfold their powers.-Eric Fromm