pay no mind to the demons; they fill you w/fear

[Whiterose]

Snodderly, my sister said it very well my H has no concept of "cause and effect" it doesn't occur to him. I think this is, in part, due to his ADHD and the MLC has amplified it. He messaged me AGAIN today saying he had transferred what he had into the acct and that he hoped I had decided to put in the remainder that he told me about yesterday. I responded that I would be doing it today and had made a partial payment on the larger credit card but cannot make the rest of the payment now. His response "it is what it is I guess. I put all the money I have. I have been messaging S14 everyday again and never hear back can you ask him to call me please" My only response to him "yes, you're right. I will let him know you've asked"

I want to take a 2 x 4 to his head and say WHY DON'T YOU SEE HE HAS NO INTEREST IN TEXtiNG YOU???? come take your child and DO SOMETHING with him!!!!!

I'm torn. I want to have him snap out and make it all better and come home but I also feel that my boys and I deserve better than this. He's never going to get better and he's never going to stop being such a jerk.

I wish I had something fun planned. It's working, for pay, and working on my financials for the lawyer. I did get a glimmer of light today from the mortgage guy saying he had submitted my report to the credit dept and "the numbers don't look too bad and your credit is excellent" I MAY get to keep my house. 5 years! I need my house for five years and S18 will be out, or on his way out, S14 will be finished high school and will have a way to see his friends on his own and I can get something else and maybe a studio to work from instead of my home. I just pray that glimmer is a ball of sunshine!