Hi HWA, sorry to hear that you are feeling this way I get like that at times as well, thinking that am I doing the right thing by NC and 180ing. MrBond is right when he says to talk to her about it, but it's whether you feel ready in case you get a negative response from her. I think with me I sorta know that my H doesn't want to get back with me anytime soon, but like you I hold a bit of hope that he may return one day We all still need to GAL for our health and have a PMA (again for our health), but as for the rest of it then it's up to you. I can't advise you on this as I'm not that experienced in other people's sitches, I can only give you support and encouragement Hope to hear your updates soon, I'm really interested in what the vets are saying about this
H47 me48 T22 M21 S20 - Got high functioning autism 3/2000 H admits to OW and moves out to live with her 11/2000 H moves back home 2/4/13 H moves out H tells me he wants D 6/13, but now he can't afford to!
I get like that at times as well, thinking that am I doing the right thing by NC and 180ing. MrBond is right when he says to talk to her about it, but it's whether you feel ready in case you get a negative response from her. I think with me I sorta know that my H doesn't want to get back with me anytime soon, but like you I hold a bit of hope that he may return one day 
