let's start at the end, shall we?

[KindaHappy1]

My oldest asked me for a ride to his practice yesterday afternoon, so I swung by the house and got to see all my boys for a bit. Unsolicited they started telling me how much W has had to work late and how she had to go out at 10pm for work the other night. I just said how weird it was that she had to be working late so much.

Then last night, I wanted to find out if she was home and if not where she was, but then I realized that it didn't matter. If she was out and I found her somewhere that I preferred she wasn't at or with people that I prefer she wasn't with, well, then what?

I'm quite sure I would get upset. I may have gotten into an argument with her, or confronted her, and how would that help me? It wouldn't, it would only hurt me and cause backsliding.

So I stayed put and investigated places that I could take my boys on the days I have them. I then spent some time writting in my journal, reviewing the 180 list and reading this thread about what women find attractive. It's a good read for LBH http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2057224#Post2057224

I can see how unattractive I became, I really wasn't any fun and that made OM so much more attractive than me, especially when you consider any petty arguments just pushed my W further away. If I had known then what I know now... But now that I do know, I can become more attractive.

I want to work on becoming more fun and funnier. Guess I'll see if there are any good books on that.