Raine, I can feel so many things from you in that post. Anger, sadness, disillusionment, strength and more.
I know that going through this is so very hard. Not knowing what to believe, the rollercoaster of emotions, the hurt and pain you feel.
I want to say that he is in crisis. That is very clear. It is not a free pass on his actions. Not at all. But it is a reason for his mindset.
He knows something is very wrong. He cant figure out how to fix it. Nothing has worked so far. He keeps trying different things.
He is still in the tunnel, though he is struggling to get out. He is not ready to face his demons fully yet.
He has to, in order to come out the other side. You have to let him.
I just want to say, that you are a remarkable woman, Raine. And I hate to think that all this changes who you are inside. I understand that you feel betrayed. You have every reason to feel that way.
But I also want you to know that you wont always.
So, leave him to his journey. You continue to look inside and walk yours.
Try not to let your hurt and anger get in the way of the of it
The greatest obstacle to connecting with our joy is resentment.
One day, you will be able to forgive him. Not forget, but, forgive.
Forgiveness is letting go of the past we thought we wanted.
