Confluences, I know how hard it is to be in limbo wanting companionship. I hope you can stay strong and find ways to get a life w/ others like friends and family w/o dating until you give this your best effort.. Especially till your deals go through and you see her response to things being taken care of.
I know it's painful and can feel like forever, but if you can get back on track w/ your W all your sacrifice now will be worth it. I know that moving on might feel better but I'm rooting for you and your W to work things out You can do it!
Also I realized in posting yesterday I forgot to mention a few key positives. My H fixed my sons bike (his step son). He usually says he'll do something and forgets so I was really happy he did something for my son right away when he asked. He's also been doing a lot of cooking for us while I'm recovering. Before our big day he felt like a roommate that just came to eat and sleep, never pitching in, so I'm really happy to see this side of my H.
My biggest challenge is to not overreact when things start to feel like previous times when he'd return, show excitement to be back and then get nervous and start distancing. I'm determined to break the cycle by acting as if whatever he does doesn't affect me. If he needs to step away for a few days or needs space I'm determined not to take it personally.
Unrelated, I lost my wedding rings a few months ago when I took them off after my H left the last time. I'm really dreading having to tell him, and I'm wondering how it will go if he eventually puts his back on and I don't put mine back on. Ugh, it's always something isn't it?
BD: Aug 2012 Separated since May 2013 S born Aug 2013 Aug 2013 H agrees to consider 'baby steps toward working things out' H is/was actively seeing someone?
You can do it!
