//FWIW, that's why I thought kicking her out of church was a bad thing. //
I think it is a terrible thing too. But, it is unavoidable. She can't continue living like she is and attend the church at the same time. She has to make a choice and she has. She has left the church, she hasn't been kicked out.
//See this is the part that you didn't understand.//
I'll admit, I was dumbfounded by our conversation last night. I still don't understand. She says so many things that make no sense whatsoever. Most of them are skewed perceptions of who I am and what our relationship was like. I understand how she can devalue me and our relationship to justify her affairs.
But her statements last night were different. They were truly delusional. I can't understand how she can completely reframe the factual reality of our lives.
I was there, we had sex. How can she honestly deny it?
It was the same with finances, parenting, and her affairs. She has a recollection of factual events that doesn't match reality. Maybe the guilt is overwhelming. There is something going on in her head that I just can't understand.
I hope that once we are divorced and I move out of the house that things will start to get better. Right now she is a mess. My kids need a mom, and I need seperation.
