Still at Square One!!!

[DFE]

I feel like the fog is starting to lift. I'm starting to feel that I deserve more and that I can't wait around in limbo forever. H came over and spent the night on Tuesday even after I had said it wasn't a good idea. So when the kids slept I had a talk with him.

I told him this was too confusing for me. I'm trying to move on but he confuses me when he comes and plays house like this then disappears for the whole weekend. He had nothing to say. Not a word. I said I'm trying to move on but he is confusing me. I also said I'm not asking you to move back because I'm enjoying our friendship right now. Again nothing to say. I dropped it and we hung out as friends the rest of the night.

I will have to continue the next time I see him. I deserve to be happy. I've been giving him too much power over my life and emotions for too long. I need to toughen up and not be scared of our family breaking up. Maybe when I stand up for what I believe I may get what I want and be happy.