Whew today again was a little rough I learned through my step son that he has been treating the OW terrible. Extreme jealousy, controlling, hateful, attention seeking- major attention seeking behaviors. Its taking all I have to process all this emotions ... I am hurt because I know I WOULD give him ALL the attention if he would come home but I realize at this pt I am not the one he wants it from. Im confused because again this is a 180 from all everyway he treated me. He had bad pts but this extreme was not one of them. Its a blow to my self esteem that he is soo possesive in nature and this woman is not that great looking and older than me... so yeah it hurts my ego etc... I understand its all part of the process, but its so hard to focus on myself when Im sitting here thinking.. why???? I am trying to read all the material I can with my 4 yr old home. I am trying to go dark and just had to speak to his stepson today cause I was very concerned with my SO well being after some comments that were made yesterday. Im scared if this is part of the new him... right now it seems worse than the old him!! ???
ME: 28yo SO:47yo D:4yo Split:6/7/13 OW:6/21/13 R attempts:7/4/13;8/14/13
