M36 W31 S4 S2 T5 M4 BD Jan12 S July12 Recon Sep12-Nov12 ILBINILWY Jan13 OM x 2 in 2013 W wants R July 13 I start D. Jan 14. Meet GF Nov 13 Have I changed enough? Jul 14
Drove to W's town this afternoon. Little bit nervous as it had been a few weeks since I saw W properly or went in her house. I knocked on the door, she opened it saying nothing, didn't look at me and walked off.
I walked in and went to S3 (now S4) and gave him hug and said happy birthday. Sat him on my knee and we read his new book. W was in the other room building a toy with S1 and SF.
I changed the kids as she finished building the toy and she interacted with me asking me some questions.
It was weird but not bad.
We went to the amusement arcade and it started off very well.
At one point I was dealing with S4 and I felt something poke my head. I looked up and it was W poking my hair! I asked what she was doing and she said she just wanted to know what it felt like. After about 30 minutes we were split up, I had S4 and W had S1 we were trying to contact each other. She was phoning me but S4 fell over so I couldn't answer, then hers went VM, then I saw her from across the room but she couldn't hear me. It got worse from there as S1 kept crying because he was hungry and tired. S4 wanted to go to look at toys and wasn't hungry. Everyone was getting stressed out. Managed to get to McD's and feed the kids. W whispered behind her phone that she had a cake for S4 that we can have back at the house. At one pint she asked me if I would get her some food too but she did it in a certain way. I didn't mind getting her something to eat so I went. On the way I went over in my head how she asked me. Hard to explain but she used her womanly way to ask me. I felt cheated when I realised. Didn't really want to get it now. Anyway saw the queue and thought sod that.
After that we went looking for a toy for S4 and that went pear shaped for a while too. Got them a little train set each. Got back to the house we built the train sets and S1 said the words "Train" "Train" about 500 hundred times, I thought it was funny but it stressed W out for some reason, W went upstairs for 10 minutes. The kids argued and fought over the train sets (there was two of them, one each). W came back down stairs and the kids were still playing up. I whispered are you going to do that cake. She said (stressed) no we will do it another day. I got S1 ready for bed, read him stories then I said goodbye to S4. As I was leaving W was on the phone to someone so I shouted bye from the other room.
Between W and I it went OK all things considered. It was things as usual for the four of us.
I find it so weird, no matter how my day was I would have still done the cake. I wasn't too bothered because I had already done it at the weekend. I find it hard to relate to her actions under stress compared to my own.
M36 W31 S4 S2 T5 M4 BD Jan12 S July12 Recon Sep12-Nov12 ILBINILWY Jan13 OM x 2 in 2013 W wants R July 13 I start D. Jan 14. Meet GF Nov 13 Have I changed enough? Jul 14
On the way I went over in my head how she asked me. Hard to explain but she used her womanly way to ask me. I felt cheated when I realised. Didn't really want to get it now.
Now she's a spell-casting sorceress?
Come on, you control you, if you can't, work on it.
Take responsibility for what you do.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
If she had asked me perfectly normally I would have got it. Literally a few seconds later when I realised what she had done I was offended.
M36 W31 S4 S2 T5 M4 BD Jan12 S July12 Recon Sep12-Nov12 ILBINILWY Jan13 OM x 2 in 2013 W wants R July 13 I start D. Jan 14. Meet GF Nov 13 Have I changed enough? Jul 14
M36 W31 S4 S2 T5 M4 BD Jan12 S July12 Recon Sep12-Nov12 ILBINILWY Jan13 OM x 2 in 2013 W wants R July 13 I start D. Jan 14. Meet GF Nov 13 Have I changed enough? Jul 14
