This life is more than ordinary

[TSquared2]

Not much to update in the "long, slow, very slow, settling down" world.

Continuing "lots of little things" in W's behavior that show movement. I do recognize that with a new job, and a social one interacting with lots of people, in person, is a HUGE leap for her, with her social anxiety. I leave her be when she gets home after saying "hi, how was work?". As an introvert also, I get that kind of "exhausted"...like my heavy client interaction days leave me just wiped. I make that allowance, I totally get it. No worries.

My stand is still the same:
-100%+ in if want to reconcile.
-Want a D? Okay, done, sign right here. Love you, you're free.

But this thing does have an expiration date, just not sure when now because the date stamp is smeared ...

But her movements recently, since I actually maybe really detached in a large way, have slowly been matched by mine...a little extra validation, showing just a wee hint of pursuit occasionally, a wee bit more initiation of interaction. The dance. So far so good. And why not? I have nothing to lose by trying on my terms.

BUT, mostly just live my life as much as possible exactly how I want to, and would if she left. Of course I make allowances in some things for the hope of R, or because of kids and financial ties, but not in the critical core parts of me. And that's what matters now.

I had a great weekend, a nice balance of productivity and relaxing. Just being a great Dad and man as much as possible. Simple, steady, aloof yet available.

You may not want to tune in next week for the next episode, cuz chances are it'll be pretty much the same. Which is another reason why I post infrequently now. Just part of this "stage" I reckon, and accept. Little to no drama is just fine with me now, lmao, forever and always after a spouse's mlc, drama is highly overrated, imo.