Bug, sorry about your dog. I remember when we had to put our dog to sleep, it was so hard. He was like a family member too. It took us 1 year to get another dog.
I was just re-reading some of your older posts to catch up with your sitch. I don’t remember if your H had an OW. I also could not get it out of your recent posts, did your H just start communicate with you more oll of a sudden? I gather that you didn’t have any R talk, right?
M:50 H:52 S28 (my S from previous marriage) M:17 + 3 BD: 06/12 S: 06/12 - H works in another state