Quote: Ok, my determination is crumbling. I want to call H to at least tell him I miss him. I know it is a bad idea but my heart is just breaking that he wants to D me.
Wow. Looks like the WINNING CINDY is AWOL..She wouldn't even consider that fatal a mistake at this point in time. The WINNING CINDY thinks with her head, says to herself.."he's not calling to say he MISSES ME or TO APOLOGIZE TO ME, or anything that a CARING H would do, why should I MISS that.."..Then of course she worries only about what she can control which is BEING HAPPY, STRONG, SECURE, CALM, STAYING ACTIVE, FOCUSING ON THE KIDS, and maybe even calling her old male pal to go out for a drink..nothing serious, just boost that old PMA a little..
The last thing she does is call her H at this point in time, she finds the strength to let him make the next move towards contact, which he will SURELY do, IF he gets the feeling she is FINALLY SERIOUS about letting him have what thinks he wants..a D..
Again, thats what the WINNING Cindy would do, but you go ahead and call him to tell him you miss him if you think that will remotely change his mind..
