let's start at the end, shall we?

[KindaHappy1]

Thanks AS.

I really don't know what to think anymore. I know that this OM is a "friend" and I think there was some EA/ heavy flirtation. I have abandonment issues that cause me to have trust issues too, so do I trust my gut? One thing that I don't want to go back to is spying. I'd rather be lied to.

I saw her this morning. I had to drop off some cash for her and she was looking at in a way I haven't seen in a long time, I won't say it was a look of love, but it was a look of interest at the very least. I loved her looking at me like that.

I feel so weak right now. Good thing is I have plans this whole weekend, so once I am distracted with some distance, I think I'll be feeling stronger.