How are you coming along with your h, he's going to be coming up to NJ pretty soon. You seem to be in a good place having returned back and jumping into life. Are you prepared to not let him rock your world upon his arrival, and departure?
That's good that your going to try sub teaching again, anything that keeps you moving forward is good.
Your sitch with mom is not ideal, but hey, it has got you girls all talking, you may be ducking down at the same time, but your family.
My life is to strange right now, I need to take a step back and look in. My mom popping in and only wanting to talk to me, h and his weakness dropping lots of work worth $$$$. This is a man that wouldn't take a day off if he was on fire, we have water don't we?
We have come a long way and the future doesn't seem any clearer, but at least we seem to be wearing the proper head gear for the next crash. There is always another to follow as long as we are still attached to our MLCer one way or another.
You by a house he "needs" to visit and me in more ways than I want or want to admit! When he last said , I don't want to be here, I said, wherever you go...there you are. I need to take my own advice before I haul butt outa here.
I like that my mom and dad contacted me but they are so afraid of getting caught in the MLC drama they don't even want to come out of the shaded area in case they are seen.
Maybe it will be easier to have a R with them where H can't just drop by, last time he devastated them with his spew, he was so thick in into then.
They move away in Oct. and I am welcome to fly over any time. Hey, I would have to fly into Vegas, what am I complaining about, it might make it easier to reopen my dreams of moving out there, not the city, but there is a lovely suburb I have had my eye on like they are, just not the same one, whew!
My daughter is already taking classes to transfer to the University, her major is very important out there. Plus, my S26 is moving to Az, only a 4hr drive, where she can also transfer her major because of an awesome program. So I do have in the back of my mind that I have options.
I never ever wanted to stay here for life, we were out the door pre-MLC, I need to move forward. Leave him behind? Let him find me if he wakes up? Don't give a damn, do what I gotta do and let happen what will? I'm sitting on a teeter totter right now, which way will I jump?
You did it, you moved away and he followed, I know you think maybe that was part of the problem, but you made a move you needed for yourself. I don't think you would take it back? Plus, I'm not really gambling if I decide later on to change it up, because I'm ok with living without him.
Yea, I'm the one here saying I don't think I want a R with my H anymore!
One other person wrote it the other day, someone returning after a while, it was interesting to read.
(((((()))))) dm
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
