I'm sorry I disappointed you there. I have to admit to a moment of complete insanity but I did not follow thru. I went to h and told him to go ahead and file if that is what he felt was the right thing to do.
I admit also to continued insanity in the midst of this crisis but my h knows nothing. To our mutual friends I appear uncaring, moving on, busy. But here alone right now my heart breaks and I have nothing but tears.
But you are right:
Quote: . I've always felt in your sitch that if you just simply LET GO, and LET HIM KNOW you've LET GO, you'd see him come around more. BUT you always seem to take two steps forward and then one HUGE step back, because you are SCARED OF LOSING HIM.
The process of letting go is a decision that is made at every waking moment I find. It not something that is easy nor is it something that once made stops the pain. I struggle every minute to let go of 14 years with this man. Not all the years were good but there are many memories. I know I'll be ok, it's a process, every day will get better. But the knowing doesn't make the letting go any easier.
Thanks for your words, I knew you'd be there for me and slap me to my senses. Thanks! I needed that!
