I must confess to struggles right now to go spy on my h. But I reread wiley's post and know deep down that if I do spy there is nothing I can do to change h's actions. He'll do what he wants to do, no matter what I say or do.
I want so bad for it to work...but I'm just sitting here doing nothing. It's hard to do nothing but wait and wonder what he is going to do.
I pray that he changes his mind. I prayed that my guardian angel will whisper in h's ear positive thoughts about the kids and I.
Tomorrow I'm going to friends and hanging out. Going to stay busy. Unlike h I can enjoy having the children. I dread Saturday though...h will be at the boys' soccer game. Oh well lots can change between now and Saturday.
