let's start at the end, shall we?

[KindaHappy1]

What happened over the weekend?

Well, Friday ended much better than it started. I had to meet my boys and W before school to hand off stuff my oldest needed. See, on Thursday, I stopped by the house after work to see the boys and W was home. I talked to her for a bit and explained how much I was missing the boys and how I really would appreciate when she will be out late so I can be with them. I don't think she wants to let me know, because maybe she is with OM.

My W had told me on Thursday that the oldest needed track pants and black shoes, she wasn't going to have time to stop and she was out of money until Friday, so I agreed and said that I could drop stuff off on Friday. It seemed like he wasn't going to need these items until Friday night.

I went out, got the stuff and called W. She said that my youngest was home and I could drop it off that night, i said that I would do it in the AM. Well, Friday AM, my oldest is calling me asking when I will be at the house, he needed the stuff for school.

I let my anger get the better of me when I learned that W was out late with "friends" which later I learned included OM. When I met up with them, I was snappy and mentioned that I had just asked the night before if she would let me know when she wasn't going to be home. My youngest was working on a project all night and lost it when the computer rebooted and I was so upset that I wasn't there for him. She left upset and I later texted her that i was sorry for my anger and explained that I lost it because I miss the boys and that I really need to see them more, and said that I hope we could work that out and that i hope she understood.

She never responded to the text. I went to the house around 6:45 to meet W and youngest to go to the football game. We were both a bit on guard and I told her that I knew she was with OM the night before and said that I really don't care who she is friends with, but when she lies about who she is with she is the one making it an issue out of it.

We went to the game together, but there was so much lightning that they postponed the game for an hour then rescheduled to the next day. After we got home form ice cream, W and I want to the bedroom and made some small talk while I went through books in my bookshelf and piled up some to take. I mentioned how it is gonna take me a long time to get all my stuff out of there. She agreed and we kept talking. At one point, someone sent me a message and she handed me my phone. I just set it down and lamented that now that I'm on board with social networking, my phone is always alerting me.

When I was leaving we were talking about me taking the boys on Monday. I got the feeling that she was trying to get me to take them Saturday night to Sunday, and that made me wonder if she wanted OM time. I reminded her that I had plans on Sunday, and explained that I was attending a divorce/separation support group, which she seemed a bit surprised.

I went home feeling good and journaled. I believe I had gained some ground on Friday, I definitely didn't think there were any setbacks, and I had PMA all night.