The rollercoaster ride is about: whether I should continue being dark? Is it working? What is it trying to achieve? My detachment? Well not really, maybe I need some help on trying to detach better. I don't think of her as much as I did, but the sitch is still on my mind more than I want it to be. I don't know whether to spend the money and speak to DB coach again. I know it is mindreading, but it is still such a worrying subject about whether my lack of contact is making her think it is over. I also continue to then disagree with myself and think that maybe, she is in a relationship with the female friend (as per her changes to all other things) and simply accept that reason. So whatever I do (if an affair) it will not change the sitch. I am simply trying to improve my PMA, just hit a crossroad, again, about which way to go.
ME:51 W:46 M:25 S:22, S:20 Divorced 16/9/15 BD 10/12 W left 12/12 with OW, affair confirmed Nov/12. Dark since 6/13 I"m in a new relationship since Feb 14.
