Quote: know that sinking feeling that your S is out there trying to muster the strength for a bombing. Let's hope that he's doing more thinking than that.
I'm not sure that I have anything helpful to add...just wanted to tell you I know what you are feeling and I feel for you. I think zero expressed it perfectly.
My H told me a couple of weeks ago that he has made up his mind; that he will be filing for D. I have now spent the past two weeks stressing out to the point where I had a mini-anxiety attack earlier this week. I keep wondering if/when he will file, is he filling out the paperwork, will I go home today and find something in the mail, etc... I keep reading into everything he says and does then it hit me yesterday....there's not a single thing I can do that will change his mind if that is what he is going to do. He's like a fast running train and I can't stand in front of it and stop it.
I'm not saying I'm giving up, I'm just not going to worry about it as much (or least I will try my hardest this weekend). I've tried to imagine the absolute worse that can happen and make a plan around that. If it comes to it, I'll have a plan.
My point is, keep busy, do things for you and your sons, stop expecting it any day now and just let H be for now. He's going to do what he's going to do.
