Linda, What you are feeling is pretty normal, especially w/a mlcer in the house, as well as a surgery date for tomorrow. It's stress and nerves that are playing on your system. I know you are concerned about his trip, but right now, you need to relax, take a deep breath, and focus on what you need to do tomorrow for your surgery. I would take a very nice hot, long bubble bath this evening and try to clear your mind of stressful things. Yes, it can be done because you need to be calm for your surgery. Please follow all of the instructions that your surgeon will provide to you tomorrow. If he says no reading or computer work, by all means stay away from those things. Your eyes are the most important sense that you have and you need to take care of them and yourself.
As for your h, his trip is not going to be a pleasant one if he's several hours away from the tart and if he's not happy about walking much...well he's in for a rude awakening over there. The fantasy must play out in order to get it out of his system. God will watch over him and will open his eyes to life once he gets there.
By all means, let the man do everything so that you don't have to worry for a month. LOL!
Tomorrow, say goodbye and wish him a safe trip. None of us have any idea what will transpire w/the situation that is playing out in Syria right now and if it gets too nasty, he may very well have to return home sooner than expected.
For now, focus on you and get a good night's rest.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
