Acceptance...

[Live4myDay]

KML, thank you for the reply. It's nice to talk through this with others. I used to go to therapy but can no longer afford it.

The FPU thing came as a sort of divine intervention and I'm really excited about it now. Financial independence is something that would be so 180 for me, plus, now that I'm single I know I can do this on my own and not have to fight with the other half to work through it.

I've become more open to dating. It is very hard to have my D see me looking for something else even though her dad is in a serious relationship that she's never met. Only a matter of time though. It's like acceptance that if I see other people it makes what her dad did ok. So I was holding myself in my own prison. Now it's just difficult to meet new people being that I'm in a totally new town, new state.

I joined meetup.com, go to great chruch and attend ladies bible study, and just recently joined a dragonboat racing club. I don't get a lot of free time with D. It's just her and I and she is struggling with friendships also, being in a wheelchair it's that much harder for her.

I have changed my viewpoint that's why I posted over here to divorced area. This is where I need the most help and focus is that I AM DIVORCED. Everyday is a NEW start. I'm just trying to figure out what it is that I want it to be. I leaped out the door now I just need to keep walking and quit running back inside...