That's a normal part of recovering from BD. We cycle through all kinds of crazy emotions and yes, we all get disgusted with the whole mess at some point. Now is the time to focus on two things- detaching and GALing. That is the path to recovery. Here is the good news- with detachment and GAL comes something else that you desperately need- acceptance of your sitch. You won't be tired of it, or angry about it, or frustrated with it. You'll just accept it and you'll move on with living life. You'll get there, just be patient.
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The video was about negative habits we pick up from our parents that we need to recognize, forgive our parents for, and choose to not continue.
You don't want to send him stuff like that, you're just applying pressure to him. In his eyes you're telling him "this is all your fault and maybe this video will snap you out of it".
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I sent the text at 7 am my time, haven't heard anything back.
I doubt you will. WAS's typically just go radio silent in response to any kind of pressuring emails/ texts sent to them. Whatever you do, DO NOT ask him if he got it and/ or watched it. It was a mistake, that's OK, just let it go and don't repeat it.
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but it won't give me what I want, my H back. That's what hurts. I could obtain all the great and wonderful things this world has to offer, but it wouldn't mean anything to me.......
That's the way you feel RIGHT NOW, but I promise, that will change.
