Wife said she was done! House sold, Moving forward

[Maritimer]

I try not to think about OM as I have no confirmation if she is seeing anyone or not. It do not help me if I think about my W dating someone. I would get physically sick if it was confirmed.

Been crying for 2 days straight. So sad that its really happening and despite all my efforts in changing for the better she still shows that she is moving forward with ending this relationship.

Feels like she is DB towards me. No contact with me, portrays that she is happy, she is confident & looks better then ever!

When does it suppose to get easier? last weekend was a really low, submarine low point in my life.. actually felt like ending my temporary problem permanently.

I am finding it challenging being a single parent of 2 boys. I am doing the best I can but feel they are missing out on certain activitys. Not enough room for 3 on my bicycle. Swimming is hard as S3 needs constant supervision in the pool and S1 would need that as well.

Life has it twist & turns but I never expect it to become this extreme!

The loneliness and uncertainty of my current life is scaring me. Negative thoughts are filled in my head, like jealousy that things are working out for her. Why cant I bee happy if she seems happy?

Any words of wisdom? Techniques to eleavate these negative thoughts?