I'm glad you posted this morning. I know the pain [censored].
I agree with Kate, do what you need to do in this moment. Do you have anyone who could come sit with you? Hold your hand while you decide on what to do next?
Could you tell ExP to stay away for a bit--that you're not ready to see him? Would he respect that wish?
I know you received a lot of good advice yesterday about protecting yourself financially--for those of us where the pain is still fresh--I can see how that would be overwhelming. The fog will clear and God will give you the strength to move forward but put your selfcare first today.
Take it easy today.
Hugs and Love,
Heather
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson