Is there's anything left of everything we had...

[Not Quitting]

So, H texted last night asking if he could call and speak to S13 before he went to bed. Wanted to wish him good luck on the first day back at school. After talking to S13, H asked him to pass the phone to me. The meeting that hasn't happened yet is about to happen. He wanted to meet up last night but I put him off as I had a bad headache and was going to bed early.

He has a meeting tonight but I've agreed to meet up with him afterwards for coffee. Going to stay away from the bars for this one. I've not got a good feeling about the topic of the meeting. I'm pretty sure he's going to say the trial separation is no longer a trial. I think I'm prepared for that but I know I'm going to be an emotional wreck again.

I'm trying to convince myself that I'm ready for this and that I've already accepted that he's giving up on our M but I really don't believe myself. It is not something I want and I fully intend to continue DBing. I am most certainly not ready to walk away from my M.