Becoming Comfortably Numb...Hopefully!

[RosaLinda]

Great song Portia. I love Pink Floyd, and was thinking of maybe using "Another Brick in the Wall" for my next thread (you know, "Daddy's flown across the ocean leaving just a memory") and agree with NLT that P!ss On It would be equally fabulous for you! 

I am feeling comfortably numb myself, drugged almost. It is very strange. When I remind myself H is deserting me tomorrow and I'm having surgery tomorrow I feel exactly...nothing. 

Yet I have woken up at 3 am for the past week, have been eating everything in sight and gained 7 pounds, have a splitting headache, and my face is all broken out (strange for 60 year old huh?), and tears are pouring down my face,  so I suspect there's some turmoil somewhere inside my brain is not recognizing right now, but I do not feel anything. Maybe my heart has closed shop? Maybe the epitome of p!ss on it?

You're sounding good, but you need to relax more, my friend. You know what I think would be fabulous, for all us Standers to have a meetup at a spa somewhere.