WTH is going thru h's mind? I mean is it that hard of a decision for him to re-commit? Am I that scary to him? Or is it just plain old selfishness on his part?
He makes me feel like I'm some awful shrew!!!! Was our life together THAT BAD? I'm thinking most of the stuff he told the MC Monday was really a way to justify himself cause he knows he's doing the WRONG thing...he has no justifiable reason to be out there living the single life!!! The source of his troubles ME (or so he says) is changing so what will he have to hold on to stay gone?
I'm fighting to remain in control of my impatience. I won't say anything to him YET but finances are going to come to a head here real soon and I'm going to have to speak to him about taking care of his sons financially. I dread the conversation solely because taking care of his kids should be in his mind already so he should continue to send child support without my prompting! He puts me in the villans place because he doesn't take of his responsibilities.
It's not h's time...it's our kids. He's robbing them of there time to be happy in life by having a second childhood himself. The whole thing just pisses me off sometimes! Right now I'm just going to focus on what he's willing to do like helping with the boys homework and let this other finances talk go until next week. Until then I'll wait him out.
I know must of this stuff is waying heavily on his mind, I hope that's what is on his mind...I just pray he's not finding some ow to distract him in the process!!!!
