One giant leap forward! - Part 5

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I have a few questions but they are in the same direction. I might shoot totally off target, but if I don’t take the shot I won’t hit anything at all, so here we go:

Do you at times find yourself thinking that it would have been better if you never M at all?

No. We had our ups and downs but our ups were great and we had two beautiful kids.

Do you think back on GF you had before W, why those R were broken up and how nice they actually was?

No. My last girlfriend before W was 9 years earlier. They are so far apart there's no comparison.

Do you feel that the lost 20s is Ws fault because she took them away by M you and then leave?

No I met W after I turned 30. My 20's was my own fault/severe lack of confidence. That is something coming on here has given me. Becoming and pushing to be a better me. I feel I have some of the confidence I severely lacked when I was younger.

Does the feeling of all this being her fault (prior to BD) hit you more and more often?

Yes it does. After she left I took 100%. Then I took my half. Now I don't think she can be pleased and/or happy.

Have the feeling of anger replaced the feeling of regretting to some extent?

A bit. I'm angry at her choices. I have always been regretful in one way or another but not so much now.

Do you feel alone?

Sort of. I am alone but I'm not lonely.