OOp another bend in the road! A friend from high school whom I also work with has admitted that he wants me to be part of his life...wants it very badly. And he's so sweet, loves kids and worships me. He says he feels no pity for my h if he thinks having a w who loves him, is beautiful, has his 2 kids is bad! my friend says h needs to wake up...cause single guys like him would love to be in his shoes! My friend has known me longer than h....knows the kind of person I am and admires me so much he's now determined to change his life for the better...is even going to church, reading his bible for the first time in 3 years. H admires the fact that I'm faithful to my h though I'm getting the shaft.
My friend offered to call my h to tell him that if he doesn't want me that he should move out of the way cause he's waiting. Maybe I should let him call him.
Though the boys and I will be spending the weekend with my friend....this won't stay out of h's ears with my boys knowing. my friend is so cool to the boys cause he owns a tank, military vehicles and an M60. He's offered to show the boys his toys...I guess really as a 'lure' to get me there too.
I don't mind the attention but wish kind of that h knew someone wants me. Maybe that would light a fire under h's chair to decide what he wants to do!!!
I know I'm actually getting tired of waiting. maybe if h should call this weekend to ask me out...I'll say no to spend time with a man who really appreciates me for a change. I need a boost to my PMA right now since all I get from h is how awful I am.
Though I've told my friend I'm not interested in an r but only friendship he's ok with that.
I feel like this r is taking another turn...where will it go? I know I'm not ready for another r after h..but maybe it will help me to let go of h further? Maybe that is what I need.
