Had a bit of a rough night last night. Kept waking up with songs going through my head and each song was bringing up memories of good times with H. Managed to get some sleep but probably not enough. And no contact with H since Friday when he texted to remind that a bill needed to be paid. I simply replied "it's already done".
I know the feeling about not being able to get some sleep. Didn't you comment on Kelela's post about things to do when you can't sleep? lol. Just get up and don't bother trying to get to sleep, but on some soothing music like spa music which you can find on youtube. Eventually you'll be about to go back to bed and go back to sleep
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A little bit emotional today because I know where H is and who he's with - he felt the need to tell me earlier in the week because he didn't want S13 and I going the same place. I know I shouldn't be and I've tried really hard not to show S13 those feelings.
I never know where my H is. I tried to get him to tell me this week when he's free so he can help me with my son when he's not at college. He won't commit or tell me anything! Don't worry about showing S13 your feelings, he'll understand
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Beer buddy and many of H's other long time friends are being cut off along with S13 and me. His new friends have become more important, maybe because they don't know him as he used to be. His long time friends are seeing the changes in him and I know that several have voiced their disapproval of his new behaviour. They all think he's acting like an idiot and they can't believe what he's doing. Oh well, it's his choice and it could cost him some friends because they may not be there if he ever comes "back to his senses" as they have been saying.
I've had a few people say how my H has changed and is like a jekyll and hyde character. Not because I hinted at this, this was their opinion anyway!
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In spite of how I was feeling with regard to H, I had an enjoyable day with S13 today in spite of those feelings, loads of walking and some good pictures to remind us both of the day. And I re-ordered DR from the library as I need to read it again.
That's good Keep up the good work and take care
H47 me48 T22 M21 S20 - Got high functioning autism 3/2000 H admits to OW and moves out to live with her 11/2000 H moves back home 2/4/13 H moves out H tells me he wants D 6/13, but now he can't afford to!
