hope you're holdng on okay- d-day rite? me, i just say goodbye- my h gives me a hug and kiss (neutral - & watered down) on the lips!! i can never figure why the heck he bothers - i don't respond hugely - really- i don't stop him tho- i do give him the hairy eyeball - you know, a sort of wtf - i may be over you buddy look - .
idk- maybe with all the "counterintuitive" stuff everyone says- i should be glomming onto him - it feels wrong - i remain calm & detached and amazed - each time.
i always think (for me) it may be the last time i see him under any kind of "normal" circumstance. i just don't trust either of us- or the sitch- of his creation. it always feels final- never has quite been just yet- who knows about this proposed arrival-
til our lives are settled with these schmos - we'll feel like this i think- delicate. can we mask it- sure - it's hard but i think we're both doing it -
it's a crapshoot i think- allllllll of it. every single f'ing thing (well, in life i guess as well)...
be linda- I hope all is well with you today - best of luck - xxoo
