He is At it Again!!! - But I am OK.

[DestinyUnknown]

I know that my husband is going through a mid life crisis and he is REPLAY. He is displaying all of the characteristics. And because I love him, I am frightened for him. Yes, people in MLC care more for themselves than they do anyone else. They feel it is there time to be selfish feeling the desire to "act out" because as the aging process continues, they see their youth slipping away from them. He thinks he only has a few years left and feels as though he is missing out on life. When I ask what he wants to do for himself, he cannot answer. He thinks by removing himself from the marriage that he will be happy.

While this hurts me, he may find someone new to spend time with who invigorates him (first time dating), but soon that will die down and reality sets in.

I know that I have cried and probably haven't seen the last of that, but I cry out for his happiness and wellness. While he is hurting me right now, I do have compassion and consideration for him even though he is not returning the same.

My Husband is not a bad person, be he has turned into a very depressed, self-absorbed individual who believes his life is slipping away. He can't see that there is a deep personal issue he is experiencing because he will never admit fault with himself. I am not sure what my role should be moving forward....a caring friend? However, I cannot help him through the MLC. He will continue to justify his actions because he needs a reasoning for a divorce. He his totally re-written our history because it serves the purpose of resolution for divorce.

He is coming home today and he wants to separate our belongings. I am not sure If I have the strength to do that without crying. He wants to remain living in the house as roommates through the separation and until he files for divorce.

I guess I need to determine if is now time for me to get off of this rollercoaster of emotions.