Thank your all of the advice. I am literally devastated right now because my H left the house to supposedly go to his our best friends house and he packed a change of clothes. So maybe our best friends are covering up? I find that hard to believe.
I went to my doctor for mediation last week, but I don't think they work for me. He prescribed Zoloft. unfortunately I do not have access to his phone records. About the OW he was seeing in 2010, I found out from a friend at this job that she was getting and I think it is this month. If the scumbag is seeing some one else, then No, I don't know who.
I feel like am LOSING MY MIND!!!! This is too darn difficult!
He says that he wants out and tells me that this a decision he made for himself. He says there is longer an us. He says he needs to be selfish to obtain happiness. He completely and utterly destroyed me mentally and emotionally. This morning, something deep tells me not to fight for. He wants to proceed with it, so I have no hope.
I have been hard crying all morning to the point I was vomiting. I don't have desire to do anything. WHY IS THIS HAPPENING?????
Sorry you are not doing well Why is a very complicated answer and not one that I can give you a simple answer for.
I can only tell you that there is a lot of science behind it and that things happen in a very predictable way.
See if you can get MWD's book Divorce Remedy and read it. It will help you to start to see a way forward.
This stuff is really hard and the first person you need to take care of is YOU!
Get your oxygen mask on and start to breath. The plane has lost pressure at altitiude and it may crash. You cant help anyone if you dont help your self first!
