Kelela, don't push your kids for info on what they do with H. I know it's tough having been there myself, but you and your H are not a family anymore, you're coparenting now. So unless he's doing something harmful, consider his time with the kids to be private and respect their privacy. If the kids come in talking about some movie they saw then that's fine, just don't pump them for info. That kind of stuff will get back to your H (because HE is pumping them for info you can be sure) and the WAS views EVERYTHING negatively.
My W and I have been doing 50-50 custody for a year now. It was still tough for me to see the kids leave at the 1 month mark, but it gets easier as time goes on. Eventually you'll find all kind of "you" stuff to do when you don't have the kids and you'll look forward to having that time to yourself.
