Tori,I am ready to back up and see what will happen.
Spent last night at cute guy's house--lots of kissing & things could have easily progressed much further, but he was very clear and respectful of my boundaries, so it did not.
What I am ready for ... cute guy & I texted today and he suggested that our boundaries change to "no physical" to which I agreed. It made me very sad, though. We agreed to keep things simple and just be friends.
Because our friendship has been flirty for a while I don't know what, if anything, it will evolve to. But, I do know that the "fire" that I've been playing with has been snuffed. I respect him for putting this out there. It is what I needed.
So, where does that leave me?? I don't know. I know it leaves me desiring to be emotionally and physically close to someone again who will love me back.
completelylost, thank you for rooting for me in my situation. And, thank you for sharing your history with me.
leftcoast & PM- Thanks for the 2x4's. But to be clear, I do not know if I am still in this to save my M. I was ready to move forward with D 3 weeks ago, but things happened with H and his OW and now I have started a new job, circumstancially things are on hold for a while.
I dropped the rope a while ago & was trying to navigate my road forward. But, you are all right, cute guy is/was not the answer--as a friend, yes, but not as a "friends with benefits of kissing."
Thanks for hitting me gently over and over on the head until I just got it this morning... trying to get back on track--whatever that is!!!
M- 18 T-21 S-14,11 & 10 BD 6-18-2012 (OW-EA) H moved out 11-3-2012 10-5-13 Me- I want a divorce. I want to move on w my life. 11-25-13 Jointly filed.