Falling Down 100....Getting Up 101

[mizjjd]

Does anyone else have some weird triggers?

This past Christmas my S17 gave me a car decal of a stick figure family. Mom, Dad, 3 sons, 1 daughter all lined up in a row. Smiling.

I now fully understand the term "burst into tears". I mean seriously, from 0 to 100 in half a second. Poor kid. Idk what he thought.

Now it can be odd things. A stupid plastic cup we got at a family trip to an amusement park. Old couples. Young couples with children. Soccer balls. Songs - even not "love songs." Blurred Lines by Robin Thicke because it talks about a "good girl", something my H turned into an insult against me.

(yes, I am a geek, get over it)

I knew there was something I liked about you lol! I for one can spend half a day "looking something up".

I don't think too much about hurting H. I hope he "gets" hurt but I don't care if its by me or OW. Nope, my evil fantasies involve OW. I am very glad she lives so far away. Right after BD? Idk WHAT I might have been capable of. And thats scary to me!

I am private and for the most part, prefer to keep my business to myself.

Ditto. This forum is a huge exception - I presume because its faceless? And entirely under my control - as in if I don't feel like "chatting" then I don't have to. Everything should have an "escape" key, dontcha think?

This area is probably one that I could 180 a bit on (maybe say like 110? Lol. 180 would probably put me on Jerry Springer.) But I have wondered if being such a clam has had unintended consequences which have contributed to the current sitch. It is one of the things H doesn't like about me. I thought I was just fine with it but now wonder if it doesn't serve me well.

Take care



Jaye