oh geeez - portia and linda -

portia:
Quote:
After the hunt all the lady lions were bathing each other and cuddling as they apparently do, she was shunned because she was hurt. The lioness who needed comfort the most was rejected now that she was considered no more use to her pride.


you're makin me laugh - i was saying a day or so ago to someone here that my family was like animal pack- they smell the injured and weak and when someone in the pack is less than tip top (me last couple years- stunned- "weakened") they either want to eat you or get you out of the pack to leave for the jackals to finish off- anyhthing to not impede the pack progress"

no kidding- it's my mother & family i guess- do not show fear- you'll get "eaten alive"

anyway- and linda- the bit about other couples. me too- i could cry sometimes when i see just old regular people- all shapes and sizes- holding hands- caring- an makes me think what the hck do they have that i don't??? the women- im as good or bad as them all things being considered- self pity- wah wah wah- i'm jealous and i don't care how icky it makes me-

also this forum- i cannot read most of it- the beginnings - the pain- i could never ever re-read my own- i don't want to remember one tiny bit of that feeling (well, anything i'm not allowing into my feelngs now-a-days- i do not want to go re-notice.)

yeah- idk about total detachment either. oh well- "trusting the process???!!! " or trying anyway\

xxo