All Out of Options

[MyNewStrength]

Thank you Cadet. It's hard to even get out of bed in the morning or off the couch. I called in yesterday because I knew I would not be able to handle the pressure as the talk at work is always about someone getting married. I know....very very envious. And I am sorry I feel that way.

I did contact a lawyer on yesterday and have an apt this coming Tuesday. Husband wants an in house separation. We have not children and with our other finances, neither of us can afford to move out on our own. This makes it worse!! I have to still see him everyday knowing he is moving forward with a D!!

My IC just called and I am so distraught that I pull myself away from everything and every one because I choose not to be a burden. Thank God I have the forums to turn to. I do not want this divorce, but he is saying that he has to be selfish for his sake. How narcissistic is that??

The first time he cheated, I had a feeling in the pit of my stomach. While I am not sure if he isn't know, I am not getting that sinking feeling. Is this normal? This man who says he is unhappy is not the man I married. He use to be active, running and working out. He did yard work, spent time traveling. He has not done any of that since last year!. I am a runner and I kept up my routines even when he was not interested. He is often on the couch watching TV. I think he is depressed, but dear I say that because he is a little self-absorbed to have that kind of insight.