Is it too late?

[trueblue1]

Thanks uRworthy.

just gone 4 days without contact, then received a txt this morning saying `enjoy your weekend x'. Just receeving a text every few days is so difficult, we are 40 miles apart & have no children between us so no need for day to day contact. Ordered DB & DR, sooner they arrive the better. Booked a holiday for next week, just need to get away for a few days.

Just copied below the texts WAW sent last week, these stopped 4 days ago when I started to go quiet, it seems she has too until this mornings txt. All my replies were courteous but tried to point out I am changing.

`Why are you now bothered that you are not part of the family, it’s a real shame you didnt listen to me when I asked you to go to the doctor as this situation would not be occurring now. You seem to be analyzing every word I say. Just because I said he would eventually move over here does not say he will be moving in, at least I don’t think it does, if you are such a changed person then it wont be long before you charm somebody else into your life. I hope that you will learn from our time together & hopefully offer support & love to that person & make them your number 1 priority, at least that will be more than I ever was, I was just the nag in your eyes. ‘

`All I ever wanted was to be loved so yes I do have the right to say that, & yes I do have the right to get upset occasionally xxx’

`Do you honestly think this is what I wanted to happen x’

‘****** track 4 is so poignant, listen to the lyrics, you were once like that & yes it does upset me x’

`I did & do love you what I cannot get my head around is that if I had not done what I did you would not have changed & would be happy to carry on the way you were x’

`I did not want it to happen, believe me, I thought I’d married you for life, but you changed & pushed me away no matter what I did you got further away & showed a I don’t care attitude, I hope you are changing & its not a 2 month wonder but you have to understand how hard it is for me to believe as I’ve had 2 years of not knowing if I was married x’

`Its hard to see how you won’t slip back into your old ways x’


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