Don't mention a birthday present and a dissolution at the same time. Irrelevant of where both started off from, one says she is important to you the and the other means the opposite.
You sound like you are trying to convince her of your changes. It would be great if it worked that way but it doesn't. She has to notice and accept them herself for it to have any real effect.
M36 W31 S4 S2 T5 M4 BD Jan12 S July12 Recon Sep12-Nov12 ILBINILWY Jan13 OM x 2 in 2013 W wants R July 13 I start D. Jan 14. Meet GF Nov 13 Have I changed enough? Jul 14