This life is more than ordinary

[TSquared2]

Greetings,

This week's update is pretty much like last week's....slow, consistent, numerous "small" things...much like Raine and TVS and their sitches.

I have heard only her "real" tone in voice, none of the mlc "tone" that we LBS know oh so well. Her reading list appears to be working on co-d, a little AA-type daily book on co-d and better R's, conscious loving, untangling tangled Rs and finding self-esteem. I am seeing more "real" her, with some new stuff, such as, she seems to not be getting all worked up about stuff, kind of taking life as it comes.

It appears that she is going through a lot of the work that we LBS have to do after BD, as has been said here...they are ahead of us on the leaving/detaching the R, after a while, we are ahead on the self-work. So I can "see" the processing, and know to lay back, only she can get herself through to where she is going to be.

Her first paycheck was deposited in the joint acct, for me I make that a rather positive sign of her intentions, though that can always change, as we all know. But waiting for that deposit (it took her a few days after getting it, and I am one who deposits same day) sure gave me an opportunity to get antsy...lol, spun myself up once or twice over silly things...guess my detachment mix was off those days. And it also tells me I am not "done done", by any stretch of the imagination.

One "little" thing that has happened is one evening I was being goofy with S2 and her, and she winked at me...and I have got in two casual, passing-by, shoulder touches in with no discernible cringe effect, lol. There are more, but just want to keep things low key still.

I have been almost an ideal of "aloof but available" (thank you rH for that metaphor ). Throw in some Tony Stark/Sherlock Holmes, as done by Robert Downey Jr, alter ego activation and a pretty fun, no pressure environment is created . I forgot how easy that is for me to do/be.

As for me, I just do what I need to, or want to. Been into fixing our vehicles again, which is good for me and the budget, working out/biking a lot, body-fat under 11% and almost touching 10.0%. Not too bad for an old 48 year old guy with an office job, lol. Haven't been out in wilderness this season yet, too many fires, the home stuff and until now with W's paycheck, budget said, nope. So hopefully will get out still, as long as I don't mind risking snow at higher elevations, I still have through October...

This weekend I will be fixing vehicles, gardening, making bread and other food, and whatever strikes my fancy as it occurs. I am liking that W works Saturdays, gives me "my space and time" at home with just myself and the boys.

So, yup, just surfing the "slow settling down" wave...

My life is good, not perfect, but good.

Hope everyone makes a great weekend!!