Harder and Harder......Part three

[Positivespin]

Thanks adniva and Turtle

I wrote that entry because I am embarrassed at being separated from my W. I cant imagine what I will feel when someone I know sees my W with another man.

So Im writing in my journal and im looking back at the year and I just wrote off an off an entire year of my life because almost all of my focus is to bring my family back together again........

It was then I realized that if I put the different facets of my life into a spreadsheet, like a business breaks its departments out, that the year has not been a failure.

Our spouses are deep in the fog and we cant waste entire years of our lives waiting for something we have almost no influence on, to happen.

The day to day hurts but we need to keep forward in some speed.There will be tears and sleepless nights and pitty parties and esteem issues-hopefully no more hyperventilating- but all that fueled the positives.

Finish this sentence; I would rather have the bomb drop on me then____________________

The list is DAMN long

And I bought the same exact backpack Many more journeys ahead