The tide is high, but I'm holding on

[reachingHigher]

Someone had to take a leave of absence at work, and FT has been filling in. Sooo, I've had to see her everyday this week. She hasn't exactly given me the nicest of looks. Guess the "I'm so sorry for being such a bad friend" facade has worn off

ugh!

H came up to bed Saturday night and spent the night in bed. Sunday morning, the kids came charging in the room bright and early. They climbed into bed with us, and wanted to watch tv.

They climbed under the covers, and the four of us snuggled in bed watching tv. It was a first. To have our family together like that meant so much to me.

H seemed very happy and content

Love this!

This place has truly been a lifesaver for me. I absolutely could not have made it this far without all the support and concern from the wonderful people here.

But, I found myself obsessing about being on here. I found myself reading and posting here instead of doing other things. Instead of reading a book before bed, I was here. Instead of going to bed early to catch up on sleep, I was here. There were even times instead of playing with my kids, I was here.

I so understand. We needed the frequent interaction for a time. I'm still posting as hopefully an encouragement to others. But I'm not reading the sitches like I had been and feel a little guilty about that.

But this is here for those who need it. And I will always treasure those times when I delved deep into the archives and received nourishment and healing from the posts here