Your future is a blank canvas, your past is what brought you here and it's worth honoring for that. Are you an abstract painter or more of an impressionist?
Adinva 51, S20, S18 M24 total 6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out 9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50 5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend __ Happiness is a warm puppy.
I'm more abstract, but a very concrete thinker. I love bright colors but also enjoy all the various shades of green that appear after a desert rain. when I look at a blank canvas, sometimes I'm nervous, sometimes I'm chomping at the bit to get started.
And I like pina coladas, getting caught in the rain, I'm not much into health food, I like champagne.
^^^sounds like a playboy centerfold interview.
So, in R news. Thing are moving forward. We had sex. Yes, that was moving fast. It was a decision that I made with my eyes wide open. My H was in a sex starved marriage for many years, most of my issues that caused that have been dealt with. If we can't fix the sex issue, there will be no R. We'll see what happens.
He's texting me during the workday to say Hi, how's your day? Never has he done that before. He sent me a song video that reminds him of me. He hasn't done that for a looooooooooong time.
I have no idea where this is going but as long as I'm aware of my boundaries, it's OK. One of my past problems has been having to know what would be happening every step of the way and have everything planned out, had to know the endpoint. I'm shedding that person (which surprises the heck out of H). Even with a "foolprooof" plan life never turns out as expected. I'm just taking each day as it comes and trying to leave the past in the past.
I'm not going to have the "Here's what you did wrong, now fix it!" talk.
I'm thinking about moving to piecing but not quite yet.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
So happy to hear that you and H are moving forward, Bug. I like the idea of you just going with life. Makes it much more interesting, right?
It's about the journey, not the destination. I find that when I allow myself to just enjoy the present, really good stuff happens. That's what I wish for you.
