Yeah, and I am pretty fine with that really. Just had too much of the IC and maybe one other person who knows about us and the two times we've been trough this. People who don't understand DBing often seem to think that there's no reason we shouldn't just be able to go right into living together again and being back on track, or at least talking about those feelings (counselors). My fear was that when she's showing strong signals of being more comfortable here than at the other place, that she's going to think I don't even care because I'm just happy to hang out and watch a movie or whatever. But... just speculating. No plotting or planning. I'll let the anniversary roll by unless she brings it up.
That's why I sounded it out here first. The real me has been carrying on just like I have been for the last few weeks. The begging/pleading/yada yada stopped weeks ago. Not a peep about R from me since before she said she needed me as a friend and started contacting me and planning things to do together.
Of course I do hope to win her back - by being a better me. Otherwise, I'd just move on.
